Updated 7.15 a.m. IST Mumbai 5 November 2022

 

Good Morning! I was thinking for so long to give a glimpse of what we have gone through in covid for it is very painful, & you know what you call it phukat mein (free of cost) like my ex stating our existence as on free after using terms as begging & all.Not before threatening with suicide.

 

I am unable to find out till date whether his tantrums are real or fake like covid.For I felt every now & then during covid it is all happening under the pretext of covid but not under it.They did what they want.Now they had license & the figures to show.

But nobody knew the ground reality because of restrictions, but we could feel it.It is not truth or complete truth how I feel every now & then about my ex. 

                                       It all started by shifting us to Nallasopara (NS) & it will end I suppose in Karjat, what they are perpetuating.These two locations is happened to be in MØ's song Lean On, I came to know yesterday only.

                                     Most probably I am going to reproduce the pages of my diary if it is intact or in place.Goodbye for now.
 

 

9.08 NOW, JOIN ME.. 9 Nov, wed 

After I signed out I checked, the distance between Karjat to here & here to Mumbai city almost same.

It was in the beginning of Pandemic we were still there in Mumbai fighting rigorously.And then there was news coming the onset of covid 19 originating from China.There was something telling me the fight is going out of my hand & I will have to give up.I was busy spreading the awareness,  last it was about smoking.I remember I went & stood outside J.J hospital to prevent them from smoking.But I was asked to move away immediately.It was this campaign only had fetched me job offer in HDFC, I submitted also all the requisite  documents & even went for field visit.At the same time I was giving it a thought to visit Delhi again.Something was telling me, my voice will count there more.But destiny had other plans or as I told you they were operating parallel..

We were very much depressed because of his (ex) changed behavior.And his Egyptian dance on road if we asked for money embarrassing me & my son.That time he was working for Arabian.I thought as such he needs medical help.But deep down my heart I knew it they are driving him crazy for I am standing against them.They were telling him to go in Masina for mental check up.One day I gave in.We took him there but somehow felt it is not the truth and decided to accept their plan B.It was to send us away so that they will get a free hand on the pretext of covid.He took us to NS where they were already there waiting.. Alas!

 

11.10 a.m. now 12 Nov 

It was end of Feb I suppose we left for NS.Yeah reg that job also, it was a game I realised later on.They used my credentials & goodwill for free! It was depressing to think they crushed my dream.When in mumbai only I had ascertained cases below 100, then when we reached there I worked on it & made a chart.But then news started coming, modi is enforcing nationwide curfew, junta curfew it seems.I said for what? I felt something fishy! So thought of defying it & decided to come back to mumbai.

 

Some pages are missing from my diary I will reproduce what is there as it is or rewrite for you.hold on..